ohh! look at that . .

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I was moved by olaf’s character ..

nasasaktan sya, yes — but still he can act like nothings wrong and chooses to be happy instead

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and he believes that loving means sacrificing.

I’m not saying that if you are to love a person, all you have to do is to sacrifice yourself in order to lose your own happiness — NOPE.

but I’m not also saying that loving should be conditional, where in fact God told us and showed us what TRUE LOVE is and that is loving unconditionally, beyond their imperfections, regardless of their shortcomings.

but what I’m trying to say is that, sacrificing in terms of letting that person go, to be happy, and to grow even if that means being apart from you.

Kung mahal mo naman talaga yung tao, hindi ibig sabihin nun “magsasakripisyo ako kahit pangalawa nalang ako, kahit kabit mo, o kaya kahit kelan mo lang ako mapansin, mag aantay ako..”

NO! — that’s not even close to love.

it must be a cliché to say “that if you love someone you have to set them free, and blah blah blah”
kabisado mo na yan, ilang lyrics narin ng kanta ang meron nyan, but still — it’s true.

and that’s what sacrificing means, because loving doesn’t give us the license to own a person

sabi nga sa isang kanta ng MYMP
loving is not owning, you should let it go ..

Kung sasaya ba sya ng wala ka sa buhay nya, so be it
kung magiging okay ba sya na hindi ikaw ang kasama nya, then let that person go ..

wag mong ikadena, wag mong sakalin.
ang ibon kapag sinasakal, maaring mamatay ..
pero sasabihin nila, pag msyadong maluwag nakakawala ..
pero bakit ba naman ang mga kalapati (dove)
hindi sila naka kulong, hindi sila nakatali ..
pero kahit umalis sila, alam nila kung san sila babalik, alam nila ang bahay nila, dahil may nagpaamo na sa kanila :)

(naalala ko ito bigla munti kong prinsipe)

just atleast be strong

You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have.

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kailangan mong maging strong eh, kasi wala ka namang aasahang iba kundi sarili mo rin lang..

ikaw lang naman nakaka alam ng sitwasyon at tunay na nararamdaman mo eh, ikaw lang may kontrol sa sarili mo ..
ikaw lang ang may kakayahang mamili ng direksyon na tatahakin mo, dahil kahit anong pilit ng ibang tao kung ikaw mismo ay nag reresist, wala pa rin silang magagawa ..

so, yes — be strong, that’s the least thing you can do for yourself, hindi ka bidang artista, kaya wag mong antaying bugbog sarado na at api apihan kana bago mo piliing bumangon :)

get up, cheer up! :)

I’ve changed. a lot.

after posting my recent post I should have known better nagbackread ako ng mga post ko ..

and I noticed that, i’ve changed a lot. ang laki ng pinagbago ko since I got a new job here in manila..

parang nuon ang gaan ng buhay ko, the way I told stories on my posts, the way I handled my life .. though rocky din naman yun (about my relationship) pero alam mo yun ? sa work .. sa bahay na uuwi ako kay mama na kakain ako ng madami ..
and yeah! un pa ang napansin ko, madami ako kumain nuon, pero ngayon ? unless pinapakain ako ni bff, pero parang dna ako nagkaka-kain ngayon .. and that makes me sad :’(

ngayon parang ang dami kong bigat sa puso?
hahahaha wala lang, nakakamiss maging ‘AKO’ ..
yung normal na ako, masayahin naman ako eh
gutumin din ako hahahaha
anyare na ??

wala lang .. parang gusto ko na bumalik sa laguna, kasabay ng gusto ko bumalik sa dating ako.
(less ofcourse the complicated part of my relationship) hihi

ayoko ng relasyon! l$%@^@*£ !!
whahahaha.
nope.

I should have known better

.. if you leave me tonight I’ll wake up alone
don’t tell me I can make it on my own,
don’t leave me tonight
this heart of stone will sing till it dies
if you leave me tonight

hahahah tinayp ko yung title, tapos automatic yan ung nag play na kanta sa isip ko ..

stay close, don’t go :))

kailangan bang sabihin to ?
I believe sometimes not all things are worth the fight, baka naman kasi yung gusto mong ipaglaban eh kusang loob ng sumama sa iba
or in the first place ‘ginusto ba nyang ipaglaban mo sya?’

ask yourself,  are in you in a position to fight for it? baka naman kasi wala at never ka nagkaron ng rights to do such things..

learn to let go, the more loads you carry the harder it is for you to step forward ..
mabigat nga kasi diba? so pano ka makakausad nyan?
don’t be afraid to drop off things na nagiging pabigat nalang sayo ..

magbabakasyon ka, dala mo sa maleta mo puro bato, tanga kaba ?
unless construction worker ka at kailangan mo yun, hahaha

I mean, am I making a sense here ? you’re aiming for a brighter future,  greener pasture, happier life, pero ang dala dala mo puro sama ng loob, grudges,  hate, lahat ng frustrations and disappointments mo, what’s the sense of leaving? eh dala dala mo parin yung mga bagay na gusto mo na ‘sanang’ kalimutan.

don’t settle for the least,  when you can have the best
don’t choose to be sad, when you have all the reasons to be happy
don’t waste your time reminiscing about your past, rather start thinking what you can become on your future

always, just always be a better version of yourself.
be wiser.
be happier.
be more patient and kind.
be stronger.
be the best YOU can be!

#notetoself

you know what’s €f@$% sad about us?

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and try to listen to it while reading :)

I’d Be A Fool If I Couldn’t See
How Things Have Changed Between You And Me
Maybe We Try Just A Little Too Hard
And Now We Are Strangers Again

I Kiss Your Lips But They Feel So Cold
I Still Remember We Used To Hold
On Those Cold And Lonely Nights We Make Love
And Now We Are Strangers Again

Chorus
Oh Lady, It’s Hard To Believe
That There In Your Eyes, Stranger I See
And That The Only Song We Got Left To Play
Are The Memories Of Yesterday

(romantic kind of)love is like a chocolate

I looove chocolates from its being, as much as possible 1st choice ang Chocolate sa mga flavors na bibilin ko, kung hindi lang available tsaka lang ako mag sshift sa strawberry..
I can even skip a meal in replace of a chocolate bar, and just last month(?) I had my General checkup done and I never thought na aabot sa point that my sugar level will not just only reached it’s nornal allowed level but I even SURPASSED it!

I was sad kasi I have to limit daw ung intake ko ng sugary foods especially chocolates (can you feel me guys?) yung pakiramdam na madedeprive ka of something na nakakapag pagaan ng loob mo?

In a week or two, I tried to check and balance my meals, I cutted down my rice, I only ate fruits and veggies during my lunch and dinner, oatmeals on breakfast, more more fruits everyday, no chocolates but after a while hindi ko alam ang tindi ng TEMPTATIONS sa paligid, na para bang alam mo na ngang bawal at makakasama sayo pero nandyan yung mga instances na you cannot just say no.

so from that time until today ang motto ko nalang is : “patay kung patay, masaya ka naman” :)

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we shopped for Chocolates last sunday ..
and ate ice cream

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cheesecake crunch ang saraaaap :)
then .. my breakfast kahapon (071014)

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and my dinner last night ..

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ipost ko pa ba yung iba ? hahahha -.-

so anyway how’d I say that for me chocolates were like a romantic kind of love?
because I know that everytime I’m taking a bite of chocolate I’m also giving it a power to kill me..
pinipilit ko yung alam kong dina pwede..
or pwede naman eh, pero diba sabi LIMIT..
dahan dahan — take it slow
hayaan mo munang bumaba ulit yung sugar level mo, hayaan mo munang maging “healthy” ka ulit para kapag okay na kaya mo ulit magbigay ng BUO.

. . .and now, I’m on a phase where I can’t even think of having another bite from it again — not for now.